Okay, so my crush is leaving tomorrow for the holidays and we won't see each other for 3 weeks. I knew he was going through some tough days so I asked him how he was. He said everything was fine and he was feeling better and then he asked me what I was doing tonight. I lied and I said that maybe I had to grab dinner with a friend. I'm into him a lot, I confessed my feelings to him first but for some reason I just don't feel like going out because it makes me anxious. We've been out a few times already, I don't like going out too often though, for some reason I lied, don't ask me why. He said "ok, we'll keep in touch, have a nice evening". I didn't reply. Now I don't know what to do.