by the way i lied about my age im 17 so maybe that will help you answer me on how you likes guys to act
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The problem is that you're so scared of girls! Realise that half of them are just as scared and all of them are only human just like you but with a Vag instead of a willy and they have boobs. They're still just people.
Even if you got your crushes interest, what would you do? You'd be too scared to do anything, probably sit there in awkward silence on the first few dates, scared to make moves etc. So first you need to get rid of that, then it'll be easier.
The way you write on here, I think in real life you may be funny, and once you're less awkward can be charismatic, so you just need to get rid of that self doubt and get out there. Easier said than done, I know, but it's the only way. If you can't interact with girls, how can you have a girl? It's not going to happen, so you just need to do it, it's hard, but force yourself to get in with more girls. Even just ugly girls at first so you can realise girls are just people, then when you're more comfortable around girls as friends you can find a girlfriend.