We didn't see much of each other over the last two years but we hung out again and instantly clicked. I honestly had strong feelings for him and i knew there were mutual feelings from him, but it just wasn't the right time for me at all. I had just gone through some stuff and I was not ready to date.
I still loved his company though. He made me happy to be around and I was fine being just friends. Flash forward a few weeks and he has a girlfriend. He treats me so differently now. Hardly responds to my messages, is very short with me when I see him in person, and just acts like he has no interest in being around me in the slightest.
I just miss his company and I don't feel like it's fair to just fade me out now that he has a girlfriend. I do have feelings for him, though, so maybe it's better that way. I just wish now that I would've gotten over my problems at the time and pursued a relationship with him, because I have never felt a connection with anyone like I did with him and I feel like I totally messed up.
I don't know whether I should let him fade me out of his life so I can get over him easier, but I love our friendship and losing that hurts worse than anything.