But then we got drunk at his fraternity formal and got into a huge random fight. He never yells at me and he began to scream and make a scene. When we got to his house it continued, so I needed to do something to stop it all and get his attention. So I pretended I was going to hurt myself. I feel very guilty for this as I know it's not something I should do but I needed him to stop screaming.
After that he took me to his place and started crying and told me he didn't want to let me go and needed me in his life. I wasn't affectionate back because I was still angry from the fight. However we have a very honest relationship and I took what he said the week before as a promise and we would get through this.
The next day he broke up with me. We have been speaking on and off for three weeks, both crying, saying it is VERY hard. He is also leaving for 3 months but coming back after that. He told me he missed me so much but is confused with his feelings. He told me that because of the fight he loves me so much but is not in love with me. This upset me because the whole 3 weeks of us on/off talking he said i love you back to me.
Is this even possible? Our relationship was extremely strong and i KNOW he loved me very much. I had no clue he could fall out of love with me bc of this. I am so heartbroken and want to make it work, but he told me he is confused with his feelings, has a lot of anger built up, and needs to work on himself for now. Im respecting that and not contacting him for the whole summer while trying to move on, but this sucks. I can't stop repeating what he said about not being in love with me anymore in my head. I feel A LOT of guilt. If that fight never happened we would still be together today.