It's not the first time that this happens, but it always hurts as much, even though I know beforehand it will happen. How can I cope? I'm awfully depressed.
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We create our own realities. You're creating yours. YOU get to decide - you are your own worst enemy.
I would encourage you to seek professional help. A counselor - they can help you sort through mental issues like this. Help you realize what is real and what is made up.
Somehow you need to move past the victim mentality. It just doesn't look good on you.
And now Browneye's homework assignment...
Go to your local mall, the big one in town, and instead of shopping, pick a seat or bench in the middle of the busiest hub of the mall. Sit and watch all the people walking buy. Watch for all the beautiful and not so beautiful people, walking hand in hand, laughing and enjoying their mates. I think you'll be amazed at how normal everyday people are. It's a matter of finding someone you're compatible with. There's someone for everyone.
Good luck. You have much work to do.