I'm in my 30s and I'm told by these men and my friends that beautiful and successful - a perfect girl - If circumstances were different then they would take me. Combined over the years this has really hit my self esteem badly and I think I'm ugly and not worthy of anything. I flood all my energy into my career and spend nights crying. Its pathetic but I am lonely. I feel like there is something wrong with me and that I'm the opposite of what those guys and friends are saying. I don't believe compliments anymore and tend to avoid them. When men approach me now I'm suspicious and the ones I like I don't bother approaching anymore because I feel like there is no point. It will only end in heartache.
I find rejection really tough. I take it personally and overthink it. I know I shouldn't but don't know how to get out of thinking negatively.