I don't want to be like this!
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you desire things that are scarce. i dont understand it, it makes no sense to me but in my efforts of reading books on how women think and behave (not pick up artist books, like legitimate scientific experiments with multi million dollar equipment) you seem to be the type that falls into this category (as you are well aware).
you are in control of yourself. if you don't like yourself doing things you'd consider mean, rude or not polite, force yourself to stop. conditioning doesn't come over night