I've ruined a lot for myself in te past five years. Posted personal picture and info online, got involved with bad people, law enforcement, manipulated and lied to a psychologist into thinking i was depressed (in my country people dont hire u anymore if u have mental issues) , moved out way too fast which made things even worse, got fired two times, made a bad name for myself, had bad friends who beat me and people dismotivated me. I come from a good backround i wasn't supposed to do this but now im jaded. I feel very weird. Help?