I am an online dater 95% of the time. It is hard to meet women offline because i am so shy. I am good looking but still so shy.
We talk fine and get along well but i add them on Facebook and they dont talk to me. I look at our chat history and it has been me mostly doing the talking, they reply 1-3 words and maybe a long sentence here or there. It hurts cause every girl i am with i treat like a princess. It hurts so much cause i try and try and i dont get anywhere. Call me a little girl but i cry cause i never have someone. Being in the military all i see are married couples and a family. I want that so much, to be married with the woman of my dreams or thats really good to me and a family. I crushes me especially after coming off a divorce i filed for.
I feel like everytime a girl i talk to doesn't work out i am a failure. I have depression problems, while i was deployed and i filed for divorce; it was the hardest decision of my life; i almost killed myself i was a mess for a long time. She remarried 2 months after the divorce and i still feel like a piece of trash because she used me so badly.
My wife alienated me from people in my unit so i really have no close friends, i spend my weekends alone. The clubs and bars are not my thing. I am about to lose it again. I think i may drink myself away, the pain and void i have it unbearable after every girl just says f*ck you vincent. God i need some help. I wish i was good enough for anyone at this point.
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I personally don't like to talk to Donald downers. Im naturally a happy go lucky person and every down fall i had was a golden opportunity to step out of it cos i was done being depressed. You should learn to make friends for now so you can have a shoulder to cry on. Forget about being in a relationship now. Get well first before you are ready to open your heart to someone for the right reasons1
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