Most Helpful Girl
I'm sorry you feel this way : (
No one should feel unloved or unwanted.
That being said,
I agree with the person who said that guys can smell insecurity a mile away.
I know it's not always easy to pretend that something isn't bothering you, especially something physical in an appearance based society. But, the best thing to do is to not let it affect you. (I know, easier said than done.) You have to realize that there's nothing you can do about that and anyone who makes fun of you for it isn't worth your time.
The same goes for being a minority. You were born that way, nothing can fix it. I know what you're going through there, I was the only black kid in an all white school, and I heard them the entire time grown up from elementary school up through high school. The only things you can do are A) take it and run with it, don't let it define but let people be aware that, that IS a part of you and you're not ashamed. or B) ignore it and once people see it doesn't affect you, they'll give it up. People are fickle that way,
The best advice I can give you is this:
Don't ever try to compensate for anything. You are who you are, and you have to just be yourself. People can tell when you're trying to hide something that hurts you. However, if you don't let those things rule your life then they're just tiny obstacles instead of brick walls. And if it makes you feel better, those people that are making fun of you are probably at the prime of their life. When they get older, they'll have nothing. (that always makes me smile : ) ) And as far as surgery, if it's something that will truly make you feel better, then save up and go for it. Check your insurance and see if anything will go along with it. However, if you're only doing it for acceptance, beware. Physically fitting it doesn't make you emotionally stable. Only you can do that for yourself.
Good luck hun, I hope that everything works out for you : )
I have faith that someday you'll find good friends and relationships that make you forget all about your insecurities.