:(. my weight currently is 130, and i've been trying to lose weight, doing unhealthy and healthy ways, and i'm at like a weird plateau, my weight won't really change, i'll occasionally fluctuate between 126-130, i've never gone above or lower than those numbers in months. i workout every day drink smoothies and try to eat healthy. i don't even understand why the lord made me this way, why couldn't i have been made naturally skinny and petite so i wouldn't be so worried about calories and the number on the scale? the amount of self hatred i go through it amazing, everyday i try to say nice things about myself but my brain says otherwise. i just wish i could starve myself for days so i could lose weight, i get too hungry when i do that and then i eat even more, but i have a friend who starved herself for the whole summer and lost a bunch of weight, so why can't i do that? i hate the feeling of food in my stomach but i still eat more than the average person probably, i feel like i don't fit in, i feel like an alien on mars who wants to be like the people of earth, but can't seem to be like them.
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Please don't obsess over this! It sounds like you are healthy now. I have been there and starved myself and even though I'm as skinny as you wish you could be, I still obsess over calories and can't get myself to gain weight (I have irregular periods due to my low weight), so learn to love yourself before it's too late.