Sometimes, but i need to be 100% concentrated while working cuz im working with wires and if i connect something wrong i could die or other people could. And i know for sure if i woke up like this my mind will be somewhere else. But if i miss a day at work they will think that im lying cuz i was sick last week (flu)
Say you're in the er because your mother is sick. Come up with something else then. If you're in a state of mind where you're suicidal, don't go working around things that can easily kill you. So, call in with a family emergency, and go distract your mind with whatever you like to do. Read a book, play video games, call up a close friend. Whatever gets your mind off of depression.. But always remember, your life is worth living!! Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You can over come this. I believe in you 😊
I don't speak that much with my family cuz i dont trust them and i dont like them. And im not living in america, im from Europe. Things are little diffrent in my place, no offense but people are not stupid like in america. Even if i stay in toilet for few mins more they will know i was checking my phone. And anyway if i stay at home i need to visit doctor otherwise i won't be paid, and i already spoke with doctor about my depression and agressive attacks and he thinks its bullshit and that im just overthinking. If i get aggresive i literally need 10 secs to kill anyone who is in front of me and he doesn't belive me xddd. 2 police vans were chasing me because i got crazy and attacked hooligans (they were thinking they are "shit" so i showed them who is shit, it makes me so mad when i see retards like that) but ofc if i tell him that i will get in a lot of trouble.
But you are right, tommorow if i feel better ill go to work, probably visit doctor and insist for some pills cuz i think ill die from sadness xd
Geez. Sounds like a rough place to be honest.. Well, I guess you have to go to work or you'll get fired. Unless you want to take this opportunity to find a better job? Take the time off to get some help. And getting help isn't always a bad thing.
Im doing school&work. So im not able to quit just like that. And i can miss my job but i gonna lose respect and everyone will think im lyer. And i need to stay there for 4years at least to finish my education so i'll be fucked if i miss job for shits like this.
Well, forget what everyone else thinks. You're your own person. You're practically letting them control your life. Why?
And what if something really happens week or two later? Ill miss job again, and again and again then ill be kicked out. Im from austria and people are much smarter here. Basically if they notice you are missing too much or on phone few times they will tell you to stop, if you do it few times more bye bye. And if i get kicked out of school ill be fucked. But anyway ill overdose. I dont feel like i should be on this world, just bunch of stupid and retarded people. What is point of living? God is mistery, we dont know what will happen after we die.
Well, maybe you should move some where else. Get a job, STICK with it, then move. Your life will be completely new almost. New people, a new place. You will restart your life. Sounds like the place your in is seriously messed up.
I actually did. I moved to other country. And i can't leave cuz im in school, need education.And its fucking same. Im visiting my old home at least once a year and nothing new. All i can do in croatia is do drugs and partys. Same like i do overhere.
Well, finish school then move somewhere youve never been.
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It's not job that is making me depressed.
What is then
Would like to stay private, but in short: sick of life, people, hobbys, family etc...
Then stop caring about all that and live your life the way you want to live it.
Its long story, i lived my life i wanted to so that is reason i feel like shit. I did everything what i wanted (even if my parents didn't allow it), and now im easly bored, and i get depression very easy cuz im not happy at all most of the time.
Problem is i dont know how i want to live my life. I lived my life in every possible way.
I personally don't want anything so my life is a bliss. I can't say you should do the same because every person is different but maybe just try doing less stuff and having fewer life goals. It could make you happier.
I have 1 life goal and that is to find girlfriend, but every girl that i spoke to is bitch and likes me just cuz of my body, wants to be popular and to have "rich" boyfriend who wears expensive stuff.And i dont care about any girl on this world , literally i could get naked in front of her just like that, but there is one girl that i feel something to but she is like top tier league and not sure if i have chance and if i could live her life style.Life is just shit, i have no idea why im telling my problems here, why im even on this website and why i didn't took 10g of coke and died.
Well if there is someone you like just ask her out but I don't recommend trying to change your lifestyle just to fit hers
Well i can't, maybe i have balls to go alone on ten guys and get naked in front of any girl, do crazy and illegal stuff but i can't look that one girl even in eyes. And actually i had chance, she tried to approach me, she was taking pics of me just to find out my name ( i think she still doesn't know) and i played arrogant every time she was trying to make eye contact just cuz i was scared of rejection. Well i have at least one positive thing. My crush didn't reject me hahaAnd still im pussy, i see her sometimes but i missed my chance maybe. And she lives "rich" style, wears only designer clothes and louis vuitton, and she is very popular. And im guy who has designer clothes sitting in house, have private account so no body can't know what im doing in life and i try not to show my money
So not really sure could i live like that, ( i lived like she lives now for over a year and i got sick and disgusted). And that was also reason why i was thinking about not approaching her
Then why are you even bringing this up? If you can't or won't do something then you shouldn't be thinking about it.
Cuz thats only thing that im fighting now and that is keeping me alive
Just listen to this song, it describes my life almost completly. Gn i think i need to sleep otherwise my little brain will explode.https://youtu.be/5IhwJvvJ2VA