I don’t have a family of my own and never really had. My birth family was very dysfunctional and abusive, I went to a boarding school and have since cut ties completely with them. I’m in a one year relationship with a divorced father of two, and he knows about my background. He kindly invited me over for the holidays, but I can’t help but feeling sad and lonely and even more alienated from people than I usually do. It’s not his fault, but I feel utterly alone and without hope. Any advice please?