Well like anyone else I want to have a normal life but I suffer severe depression. I go to theraphy and take medication. The thing is that my therapits claims I have a distorted view on my life but I don't. My life freaking sucks. I failed college 6 times and can't afford it anymore, started 3 businesses and they all failed leaving my credit busted, I work in mcdonalds and can't get another job no matter how many skills I learn... I'm ugly as fuck and wayy to skinny. I try to bulk up in the gym and yes it did work for a bit but that takes years upon years so I get frustrated and half ass it now a days.
My family hates me, I literally have no friends I have no on eto talk to. My friuends are all married with greta jobs I live in my car. My life is garbage. I don't want to kill myself I wish things would be better I work my ass off but nothing ever works. I'm as of late conteplating getting into heroin to numb my pain away untill I die of natural causes.
I really dont want to end up like that but I also want my life to be good and to be succesfull at something at least. what should I do?
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Getting in to heroin will not make things feel better. Maybe for a very short while. If you think you feel bad now then you don't even want to imagine how suicidal you will feel between your highs once you've really become hooked on that stuff. And since you have no money you will quickly get into criminal acts to afford more and more heroin.
Maybe you could benefit from re-examine what it actually means to be a "successful" human being. In my world it's not measured in what job you have or what car you drive. And quite frankly I earn about the same amount as you do with my self employed work and I don't have a car and not a wife. But do you know what? I don't think my life sucks. And that's because I don't define myself according to those things.
If you really are on the brink of suicide and contemplating taking up heroin. That means that you have nothing to lose and you can do pretty much everything. Sell everything you have, start over, move, do whatever. Because everything is better than suicide and heroin.
Maybe start with small goals and work on those. Even the longest journey starts with one small step.0
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