Okay I have to get this out, and this is a place I found.
I'm 18, living in the UK, a heterosexual guy who has never dated or been close to doing so.
To give you an idea, I am not attractive physically, by my own analysis. I have little hair and an oversized forehead, creating that classic "probable murderer" look, and no amount of gym time has been able to earn me an acceptable body.
It's not much better personality wise. My interpersonal skills have always been so impaired that, for most of my life, I was believed to be autistic. I am afraid to approach women, and unable to see in the moment any signs indicating that they may be interested. I believe that I am completely repellent as a person, and I'm pretty sure other people do too.
I do not consider myself to have any real friends, much less ones who can introduce me to others. My interests are obscure to the point that I can't meet anyone through them either.
Recent developments have made it worse. After being blown off repeatedly and considering the problem may be me as a person, I began to read up on basic stuff about how to properly respect women. I managed to realise that I wasn't entitled to anyone, but then I thought: if I'm not entitled to anyone, what chance do I have? After all, I'm utterly abhorrent due to some things I'll never be able to change (see above) so without the illusion that I was destined for someone, my confidence in finding someone fell to rock bottom.
I feel I may have developed a sort of depression as a result of, or to compound, this, but I am afraid to go and get help. I'm in so deep that I have begun to resent the happiness of existing couples, a feeling which has been amplified around this time of year. (Another sign that I am just a bad person.)
I'm hoping I'll get out of this either some words of support or advice; or a confirmation that I will be alone all my life.
- You're wrong, you can find someoneVote A
- You're right, it's time to accept itVote B
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You're so young, you literally have nothing to worry about. Dating as a teen is really only a trial phase anyways.0