I'm 21. I'll admit, I am spoiled, my dad treats me like a princess. I get almost all I want (we aren't overly rich tho). My first job was last summer for a few months at Starbucks. I go to a private college & I study psych. I'm studious, and I do have a quick mind.
However.. I am not ambitious at all. I study psych but I am not passionate about it nor am I planning my future for it.
It's now summer (my dad is making me get a job since I spend quite a bit of moola on a daily basis), but my day consists of fluff. I wake up, eat, get pretty, go out for a few hours and shop or drive around and listen to music, and think about my existence. I have depressional tendencies and I experience this "existential crisis" where I can't seem to do anything.. nothing seems important so I fill my day with nothing.. Shocked by my own existence and this whole life. When I'm not just loafing around (sometimes high on pot as well), I go after my latest guy obsession. Every few months I become obsessed with some new guy I meet; he becomes a challenge I have to win... Sometimes it ends in heartbreak.. sometimes I just lose interest. Thankfully I am a really physically attractive person, and I have not had trouble getting almost any guy I pursue if he is single. Problem is, I go after the most unattainable hard to get men, and it takes all my thoughts and time.. And I feel like I Lose sight of MY own ambitions.
for example, a month ago I met a guy in a band. He is not looking to settle into a relationship now. But man, when I met him I was dazzled. Picture Brittney Murphy (Molly gun) from uptown girls when she meets that musician on her bday. I actually AM Molly gun! Damn. Im like little kid at times, my room is over the top, full of frill and decor yet a total mess; I don't work but I "need" to, I'm chasing after some dude and I get SO attached and dramatic early on.. I live in my own fantasy and.. I'm realizing now I can't continue bc I am not progressing.
What do I do?
Of an obsession
Most Helpful Guy
First dtart going to a counselor... preferably a christian one. Possible your dad was controlling and abusive when young?
Start going to church and find God.
Third stop the drugs as they can cause problems
Next start giving and helping. Volunteer or something to do something positive. Go on a mission trip to help poor kids... it gets yoir head out of your messed up world.
The fuy thing is some kind of acting out of your inner wounded little girl.. probably craving love from dad u never got. Need counseling.0
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