Every day I tell myself a ridiculous lie that I'm going to get in touch with someone I don't want to get in touch with.
I don't know why I do it. I think I just have some belief I can control the situation when I know there may be a fat chance I can't. I don't know how to move past it and write down all my feelings.
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ok, there are multiple questions involved in this one.
i think what your brain is trying to do opposite of what you really want to do.
you're having doubts if you want a relationship or not.
can you elaborate the question?2