He's also admitted about 2 months ago, that he still finds me attractive and really wants to kiss me and not that he doesn't want to or can't but he ' has a good thing going and doesn't want to mess it up' (meaning with the 'friend' he cheated on me with.doesn't help that he cheated on her with me a while back for 3 weeks straight I know , it's a mess. ) Anywho, I still do care about him but I am lost on what any of this means, if that. I am doing my best to move on and no I don't love him the same way but I'm sorta mixed feelings since I am trying to heal.
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It sounds like, in spite of what he did, you are still a couple in most respects. He sure doesn't sound happy with the 'friend', does he? In some ways you are so much closer than he could be with the new girl because he hasn't known her for so many years. They don't have the years of shared memories that you two have.
But he made his choice, and he should move on, rather than dragging things out with you. The same goes for you; you should put strict limits on contact with him and start meeting new people, having new experiences, learning new things, going new places, so that you aren't tempted to revert to your old habits with him.