Offline, girls don't even talk to me and I'm too shy to do something. I'm sorta invisibile.
Online, in text only chat-rooms (no photo), I'm a 'mysteryous and charming guy' because of its personality. If I don't say a word about my life, they get flirty and picture me like a tall, brilliant and successful man...
BUT, when I describe myself things do change a lot!
My height is 5'8"; I'm balding with shaved hair on sides and a long fringe to cover up bald temples (I have anyway a mini bald spot back). My hair is dark-brown and my eyes are chestnut. My race is Mediterranean (Southern Europe) but my skin is a little bit pale, not tanned. I'm not chubby (149.41lb), but I'm not fit at all so I have a 'soft' appearence, I don't know how to say it. I completely shave my beard and mustache and have thin eyebows (I know it's a little feminine, but I just like it...). No tattoos or earrings.
I'm alternative-chic into minimalism, with black/grey no logo clothing.
I'm virgin. Never been in a relationship. Never kissed. Never had a job/worked a day in my life (nor volunteerism). No car. I'm studying Literature in a Bachelor's degree and I'm living alone in a studio apartment with my parent's money. I left school because of anxiety (due to mockery, exclusion, no friends... my overprotective parents treated me like a kid and didn't let me have many life experiences, so people labelled me like a loser) and spent my teenage days closed in my house on the internet and video games. I started high school at 20 and university at 25, where nobody talked to me (despite we are 300 in classes, mostly girls).
I'm not despressed, but I feel ashamed. I don't feel a bad person and I think it's not completely my fault what I became.
Women who knows something about this, instantly get acid, snob, label me like 'you have nothing to offer' or 'immature' and 'lazy' if not fake/troll because 'too much a loser'.
1) Why should I become a muscular dude to get a girlfriend?
Being healthy is okay, good-looking is okay, but not every taken guy is a muscular one - not every taken woman is a beauty queen too.
2) My goals are things like having a girlfriend, a social life, not being labelled 'lazy' and virginity at 29 is a heavy burden to me.
I know it's quite desperate to say, but I'm kinda obsessed and can't even imagine my future after solved those problems.
4) I'm against online dating too. I don't want to expose myself to ridicule and fakes. Anyways, guys like me are totally ignored there because of appearance and there are too many dudes to compete with.