Help!!! I hate thissss?

I have a big fear of relationships and commitment out if nowhere! I have been surrounded by happy and successful relationships my whole life but for some reason when its happening with me I freak out. Earlier this year I liked this boy and he liked me and we were going pretty strong, and then he asked to make things official, I said yes and at first I was happy then I stated freaking out and I had multiple panic attacks every day for a few weeks about it and I ending up ghosting him. This was really unfair on him but I was too stressed and couldn't build up the courage to talk to him about it, but him and I are good friends now, even though I still feel terribly about it. The thing is I do crave a nice relationship but when I get the chance I get anxious and run from it. How do I get over this?
Help!!! I hate thissss?
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