Search Results: i dont want to have sex with my boyfriend

maybe im just self conscious or jealous or something, but i cannot stand to watch movies with very strong and explicit sex scenes/lots of nudity. i dont want him seeing other women and it makes me really uncomfortable knowing he's looking at them, and i wonder what he's thinking, and i can't get it out of my head. i can watch those types of movies alone or with anyone else, but i can't stand to with him. i dont know what to do or how to stop feeling like this. it makes me almost sick it bothers me so much. am i the only one like this? what can i do to help myself? cuz i know the society is just going to get worse and worse with their sex and nudity.. i can't help that. but i dont want to feel like this for the rest of my life either.

I've kinda been wanting to have sex with my friend. We are both girls. We've joked about it a lot and have had real conversations about it the other night at the bar.
Now.. should this actually happen.. nothing would happen. We would be able to even if we both have boyfriends. Which we do.. our men both have the same rule.

"As long as I get to watch."

Only thing is, as much as mine claims that, he does tell me he doesn't want anyone else having me. He selfish, and I love it.
Now the only reason I'm opposed to it, i dont think i want her boyfriend seeing me.
I guess that is the problem. I wouldn't mind just doing it without them watching. (Obviously I guess..)
Anyhow. I've thought about it, if we would have sex, with or without the men watching, would it really be just sex?
In the hypothetical conversation of doing so, me and her have already promised each other that it wouldn't change anything or hurt our friendship.
But if we would, could we really do it as friends? Or is it more so a possibility that one of us would end up falling?
I dont want to ruin our friendship. I won't if I can avoid it.

What do you think?