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I have never been very close to my family in a physical manner. When I was younger I used to kiss my mom goodnight and that was about it. A handshake is the best I can get from my dad and little brother, anything else would feel quite awkward now.

A few years ago I saw a dad give a friend kind of a hug and a kiss on his head. I think he was a little embarrassed by it but little did he know it shocked me a little. I never had anything like that!

I do think this might be part of the reason I haven't learned to touch people in a natural way, like a pat on the shoulders or something like that. Because I never did it at home, I didn't do it to friends either.

To end on a positive note, I started taking dancing classes where touch and leading are very important. At first I was (and still am sometimes) nervous about it, but I also grew to like it. A simple touch while having a conversation still doesn't come very naturally though.

So how close are you with your family and friends? Do you jokingly push them away, draw them closer, give a squeeze their shoulders and hug them every time you meet them? Or is a handshake already something for a special occasion?

To clarify, I'm 19, in my first year of college, and have never had a girlfriend prior to this.

My college has an art club, and though I usually don't join clubs, and never have in elementary, middle, or high school, I decided to, since I'm open to being more social than I was in the past.

And the club itself is fun. I mean what can I say? We get to draw, and everyone in the club seems supportive and friendly for the most part.

One girl, though, a pretty blonde with fair skin, started to talk and open up to me right away. I'm usually an introvert, but once she started talking to me, I talked back to her. I guess I noticed little hints she liked me. She would smile and laugh often, even when what I said wasn't necessarily funny. Sometimes she would come close to me for no exactly good reason, like to tell me what I could improve on my drawing, she'd get up and stand right next to me, to the point where I could smell her perfume and feel her hair on my face.

I mostly brushed it off as her just being friendly though.

Till one day, as we were walking out of the club meeting room, she told me she really liked me and wanted to go out on a date with me. And so we did.

We mostly just sort of walked around together, talking. We stopped by a few places to get snacks such as ice cream. Then we stopped by her home. And so on and so forth.

We had a great time and I felt as if we've grown closer. And we've hung out several times since, and at this point it's more about spending time with someone we love, than "dating."

But whenever I'm near her, I feel a bit nervous all the time. Though every time I make a mistake, she just smiles, brushes it off, and comforts me. She also hugs me a lot, leans up against me, sometimes lays down on me, wants me to spoon her, etc. And I've never touched someone in my life so much prior to her. My family isn't touchy feely, nor have any of my friends been.

I love her but sometimes feel she's too good for me.