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My boyfriend and I have been dating for 10 months. Before then, I went through a really bad break up with my ex. I tried to be friends with him or at least be on good terms before my boyfriend and I started. When David (boyfriend) and I started dating, I was still talking to my ex, not romantically but as friends. I admit I did have some feelings but I did not want to date him, those feelings weren't romantic. I admitted to those feelings to David and he left me. While we were on break, he tried to make me jealous by hanging around this new girl at our school who happened to be friends with all of his friends. We get back together, soon after I get news that I'm moving 7 hours away, we stay together. I get insecure about him sitting with his friends because of that girl. Soon, my doctor finds a large tumor, it might be cancer. I have surgery. Fast forward to April, I give my FB password to him, he accuses me of cheating. I don't cheat. He says that using emoticons is cheating, I only use emoticons when the conversation is meaningless and I'm not sure what to say. He says I'm lying. A guy says he misses talking to me and being nice, I say that I miss talking to him too, I don't mean it but I know he won't bother me again. Everyone else, were guys I was friends with years before David and I started. Week later, I drive 7 hours to go to his prom. Everything is great after prom. Weeks later he says he showed my messages to girls at his school and they all "confirm" that I was flirting, he says he can't get over that and that I didn't love hit, and he asks for a break. During break, we still talk and call each other. I showered him with love and affection. The other day he said he can't do this, that he can't trust me, and I get hysterical. After hours of us crying and me asking why, he takes back what he said and we're together again. Next day, he says this was a mistake, repeat of the night before. We're together again. He says he's scared about us not working out.