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My ex and I are talking and i want him back. At the beginning of the year I had an app I did not tell him about and i cheated on him on there. In total i cheated about 14 times throught this year. He cheated 3 times with his 2 different Ex's. I made up lies from the previous 2016, and he found out about them all in 2017 and i still tried to hide the others (they all came out over time however). Tjeu were terrible such as rape, abortion, and pregnancy. He also had lies however (what im about to share happened this last week with him) he pulled this huge prank full of lies. He said he was gonna chest on me behind my back and had his friend screenshot it and show me. He lied and said he took her virginity (he still will not tell me if he actually did). He lied that he proposed to her and that she had actually been lying to him. While he was Doing this i made bad judgment calls however. I unblocked an ex (we did not talk) and a friend that i blocked over her being stupid (i did talk to her but i ended up reblocking her the next day) and i started dating someone and i gave himca nude in the first day (we swapped them). However the next day it all came out after i haf to contact his uncle and he was pissed at me for contacting amd ruining his families Christmas. I had to contact his uncle because my ex tried to kill himself over the phone again. (This has happened on 3 occasions and he hates me every time for contacting his family) i ended up sending my ex a nude and almost sexted with him cheating on my boyfriend. Whom i then had to break up with after. I personally love attention and i did a lot to get back at my ex. Him and i are far far far from perfect. He also lied about more saying he cheated a lot more then 3 times because he wanted to hurt my feelings. He has given me many chances to change through the year. I am fully ready to make all the changes necassary however i do not blame him for not believing it. I would give everything for one last chance.

My ex and I are debating who has the right to be more pissed about everything that happened between us this past year. At the beginning of the year I had an app I did not tell him about and i cheated on him on there. In total i cheated about 14 times throught this year. He cheated 3 times with his 2 different Ex's. I made up lies from the previous 2016, and he found out about them all in 2017 and i still tried to hide the others (they all came out over time however). Tjeu were terrible such as rape, abortion, and pregnancy. He also had lies however (what im about to share happened this last week with him) he pulled this huge prank full of lies. He said he was gonna chest on me behind my back and had his friend screenshot it and show me. He lied and said he took her virginity (he still will not tell me if he actuslly did). He lied that he proposed to her and that she had actually been lying to him. While he was Doing this i made bad judgment calls however. I unblocked am ex (we did not talk) and a friend that i blocked over her being stupid (i did talk to her but i ended up reblocking her the next day) and i started dating someone and i gave himca nude in the first day (we swapped them). However the next day it all came out after i haf to contact his uncle and he was pissed at me for contacting amd ruining his families Christmas. I had to contact his uncle because my ex tried to kill himself over the phone again. (This has happened on 3 occasions and he hates me every time for contacting his family) i ended up sending my ex a nude and almost sexted with him cheating on my boyfriend. Whom i then had to break up with after. I personally love attention and i did a lot to get back at my ex. Him and i are far far far from perfect. He also lied about more saying he cheated a lot more then 3 times because he wanted to hurt my feelings.

Me and my ex boyfriend broke up over an argument a week ago (mainly caused from my trust issues)
Most of our fights is because of my lack of trust for him
He has never cheated on me before but I kept thinking he will cheat like my previous ex did but I realize now that I'm an idiot for not trusting him :(
I have told all my close friends about everything thats happened and also the things during the relationship (the good and the bad)
They all think he's a great guy (some of them have seen him already) as they know he treats me right and all that and thinks my boyfriend truly loves me
My ex even told my friend's boyfriend that I'm the best girlfriend he has ever had
All of my friends think he's going to come back even though he has blocked me from everything and deleted all our pictures straight away
They think it was the heat of the moment and he's not thinking straight at the moment and still angry and need space and that when he calms down, he will come back and talk to me
Then I asked my big brother for advice (my ex is 27 and my bro is 29) so similar age and my bro has met him before
My big brother thinks he's a great guy as well
I told my big brother what happened and all the things my ex boyfriend had done for me and all that
He told me that my ex is sick of my trust issues and that I should be the one apologizing and try messaging him again to see if he replies or not
But he thinks that my ex might not come back
Which one should I believe?
My friends or my big brother?
Im so confused

Me and my ex boyfriend broke up on Monday so 4 days ago
We broke up because of an argument
He blocked me on facebook and instagram and calls
Today I told my friend to go on his facebook and see whats new
He put up a picture on public and the caption says
"Feeling incomplete
To tell the truth.. I have failed so many things that life has offered me...
I have failed in love..
I have failed my family and some of my friends
I have made so many mistakes but I keep repeating the same things
But im going to get back up and be a stronger version of myself.."
What does this even mean?
Is he happy with his life without me?
I still love him 😔😔
Has he moved on already? And gotten over me?
Im so confused
I know its bad habit to look at his fb so pls dont say that
I just need to know what his caption means