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Alright so there was a girl I once like way back in HS about three years ago and she gave me a shot sort of and I def blew it. I was so fearful of losing her now that I finally conquered the odds and got her attention I was to over bearing and lost her. Well 3 years later, a couple months ago she emailed me and wanted to be friends again and we have been, well two nights ago we went to the mall and had fun, and ate dinner out and then ate cookies at 1 am while lying in my bed talking and it happened I fell for her all over again that exact moment. The problem is she thinks of me as a really really good friend and I do her as well and I have never been happier with her, but part of me now wants more again but I know if I told her and she didn’t feel the same way id lose her forever, I have talked to her and she has admitted I have changed as she has to of course time has made us wiser. She has told me what she wants what she needs and I feel like I can be those things for her for the first time we want the same thing, but I am so deathly afraid to lose her if I'm wrong to which I know if I am is the only outcome. She trusts me so much, but I feel like keeping my real feelings is lying to her….but its all for the sake of our friendship, I never allow those feelings to make biased remarks….I put a lot of effort into that for when I give opinions its for what’s best for her not me, something I have learned to do from our past. So what do I do? Do I simply wait and she if she acts on what she feels if she feels anything or should I tell her? Is it lying to her together wise? And is risking my friendship this dream state of happiness worth it? I have even told myself if she gave me another chance if our meeting was a 2nd chance then even if ruin is a poss. outcome I will risk it all for the chance. I don’t want to lose her either way but perhaps I must in order for one choice to prevail, maybe this is my suffering in life, I must for fit one for the other to exist, so lend me your thoughts.