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I am the one who initiated the friends with benefits relationship but somehow found myself falling in love after 8 months so I cut off the benefits, attempting to remain friends. We got along so well but neither of us wanted a relationship, although I suspect he may have feelings for me too.

One day, we were hanging out at my place after a long time apart. I had told him before he came that there would be no sex. We did kiss, but he took it too far and forcefully put himself on top of me, groping me and removing my clothes 3 separate times despite me telling him to stop and pushing him away. I told him to leave but he didn't until a few hours later.

We talked over messenger where i told him what he did was wrong and that I felt terrified and humiliated. He seemed genuinely apologetic but I told him we wouldn't be seeing each other again.

It's been 3 weeks and I am a complete wreck. I am so conflicted, wanting to contact him and talk it out face to face, while at the same time never wanting to see him again. He messaged once to ask if was okay, which baffled me. I don't know if this has affected him as badly as it has me. I'm not okay. I can't focus at work, I can't eat, and I wake up in cold sweats over it most nights and despite it all I still have feelings for him. I didn't answer because how do you answer that question when you're falling apart?

Should I contact him? I'm especially curious what men think about this, as all the women I've talked to say to "just block that asshole", but that feels so cold to me