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My best friend told me she was in love with me and i thought i felt the same and started dating her but when i found out im not gay or even bi i broke up with her. I accidently told her that i still like my ex bofriend even though he is a douche bag. But now she won't talk to me and is telling me im the reason she cuts. I dont really want to be friends with her anymore anyway our friendship has been destroyed to much. Although she was my bestfriend so i dont know what to do.

Me and my boyfriend been together for around 7 months now. I have been hurt before by my ex and this created trust issues. I have been guarded up for first few months during our relationship but I have been opening up to him more. Yes we have been intimate for these past 2 months and it is going well. But I do have some doubts though I dont know if its just my insecurities taking over. I have been thinking about the following:
- he is quite fit and likes to take care of himself. I have let myself go for this past year so not motivated to go back to the gym. He has told me to come gym with him so now I feel insecure and thought about how maybe he wants a fit and better looking girl than me. I have told him this but he said "I want you to look after yourself but I still want to be with you" but I keep thinking Im not good enough for him and that he can find a better looking girl than me.
- Im not sure if its because of my birth control pills but I have been very moody at the moment and been quite depressed, keep thinking about how my life is unstable at the moment. Also, I keep thinking maybe Im not emotionally stable for a relationship. I do care and have strong feelings for my boyfriend but I kind of hate myself and I dont know if I can ever love someone if I dont love myself? Sometimes I doubt him when he says "i love you so much" but he has shown through his actions and efforts that he does care for me. When we had a massive argument, I was at a breaking point where I wanted to leave but he did fight for our relationship. I tend to give up on people easily and I know its not a good thing.
So I am confused. I dont know whether if these are good enough reasons to break up? Or maybe its just my insecurities? I care about him so much and I just don't want to hurt the both of us.

so last night we were talking about love bites while we were cuddling in bed. He asked me if I ever recieved love bites and I said yes. He asked me who gave them to me and I told him the guys that have given me love bites including my ex. I asked him back who gave him love bites and he told me the girls that have given me love bites. Then out of nowhere he mentioned that his recent ex girlfriend was crazy that she would give him the biggest love bite and then he said "you're a good kisser but she can really kiss, to be honest she's the best kisser" and I got so pissed off at him that I turned over. He knew I got pissed so he tried to put his arms around me and apologized and then said "even though she's a really good kisser, there's no passion or feelings there. I never had those strong feelings for her. I never loved her. But with you, I really love you so much."
I still got annoyed and cried abit but I didn't let him know that. Then he got on top of me and started kissing me and then out of no where gave me a love bite. Why would he give me a love bite after all this? Thats the first time he's given me.
Am I right to be upset over this? Is what he said disrespectful and he shouldn't have mentioned it?