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My friend and I graduate in two months. We've been friends all four years but got very close this past year. About a year ago, I realized I had a crush on him. That ended in November when I said it out loud and he friend zoned me.
After that, I tried to be like a dude friend, but he insisted on acting like we always had, play fighting, teasing, being touchy feely, basically doing things I call flirting. In my mind this stuff causes sexual tension, so I don't want to do it if he's not into me. I told him this and he said that's how people act when a crush falls through. I don't get that at all.
Two weeks ago he showed me an old yearbook pic of me he had found and put on his phone. He works in the school lib and I guess went through old yearbooks looking for pix of me. He was showing it to all our friends, looking for some kind of reaction, but no one had one. The pic is from middle school but I think it's cute. I don't have braces anymore, my hair is shorter and I've lost weight, but people, including him, say I'm pretty and cute now.
I just don't understand why he has this pic still and why he shows it to people. I asked him and he said it's funny because I don't look like that anymore. Well, duh. I've seen old dorky pics of him that he's sent me.
Is he trying to make fun of me for how I used to look? If he's not into me, why go to the trouble to look through old yearbooks, take a pic on his phone, show it around and keep it?
When I told him I liked him last fall and tried to kiss him he said we coukd kiss at graduation, as friends. Last week he asked if I still wanted that, but before I could answer, he said he would still go through with it but he was dreading it. So I said forget and got hurt.
Is he just being a giant dick? If he thinks I'm pretty, why would he "dread" one kiss? I fee like he's always trying to neg me and make me feel bad.
What's up with the pic thing? That seems creepy and stalkerish to me. Who does that and wh

Quiet love-- does small things to show she cares, is there whenever you need her, lets you have your freedom but trusts you not to abuse it, prefers quality time over quantity, treats the relationship like its sacred, not something to brag about to discuss with other people, may not do a lot of pda but showers you with affection when you are alone, etc.

Loud love- posts about it, professes her love to you vocally more than once, may be needy, clingy, and possessive, loves to vocalize how you are her man, "touchy-feely" whenever you are somewhere, some can be territorial, loves pda, more public about the relationship, showers you with affection in public and alone, but more so in public, etc.

Note everyone will fill every part of 'quiet' or 'loud' love-- this is just my interpretation of it. Personally, I fit into and usually show quiet love. From my experience (NOT saying this is always the case, just based on my personal experiences with guys), this works the best for men that are older and secure (work their own job, emotionally stable) and less so when the guy is my age and insecure or less emotionally stable. The last time I dealt with the latter, he claimed I didn't love him and questioned my feelings for him. He would try to 'test' me by flirting with other girls to make me jealous, but when I wouldn't react, would lash out at me. It wasn't until he broke up with me and some time passed (he dated another girl) that he realized all the things I did that proved my feelings for him and he wanted me back.

Most of my guy friends have voiced they prefer a girl that shows loud love because it shows she is proud to be with him and because they feel loved and cared for. I want to know what other guys think? Do you prefer quiet or loud love from a girl?