Search Results: sadness and rejection

Now don't judge me for what I'm doing, if you were in my shoes you'd most likely understand. See I'm 22 and never had any experience with girls (until now), never kissed a girl, had sex or done anything of the sort. I've copped a fair bit of rejection and when I go out clubbing and such I actually make an effort for once to get phone numbers and such and pretty much get nowhere (just the odd phone number here and there) and to top it off I look like a 15 year old for the most part, which just adds the icing to the cake. And Because of all this it has left me really lonely and feeling like sh*t (the only thing that got me through was knowing she was out there and that I just had to keep trying and I'd get it right eventually). And I've felt like this for years (when I was 17 I wanted to kill myself even, and feeling so alone may have contributed to it).

But recently I just met a girl and we're really into each other(shes the first girl who I know has actually been so into me)...problem is she's 15. Now we haven;t done anything yet since I'm willing to wait, but we have kissed. And when I kissed her I felt like

"omg, what would've happened if I kissed a girl with more experience, she would freak out and leave right there, damn I need some more experience!"

So now I'll probably end up feeling worse if we break up, still having my lack of experience, and I meet a girl who has done such things because she probably will hate me for it, or at least feel awkward about it.

So here are my questions

Do I stick with this girl whom I really like, who really likes me back, even if it means people will give me all this sh*t for it?

And gain the experience and such and stay happy for however long we're together.

Or do I give it up, go back to feeling worthless and alone and end up feeling worse when I get with a girl because she would most likely hate (or at least feel awkward about) my lack of experience?

Plus if I do give her up, will I/can I/how do I actually find a girl my age or close to it who actually likes me for me, isn't ugly and doesn't care about my lack of experience? (I mean I've been looking for 22 years and haven't found anything yet)

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can anyone help at all?