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Without seeing a photo of me. Answer the following questions and decide if you think you could connect with me.

Do you like to travel to other countries? (Yes been lucky)

Do you like Photography and Art? (Yes I am a keen amateur photographer)

Do you like Rock and Metal Music? ( It is my fave genres alongside some guilty pleasures)

Are you passionate about film? ( Yes my fave films are Back To The Future, Forest Gump and The Godfarther)

Do you like to be serious and have fun?
(Yes you have to be playfull amongst the seriousness of life)

Do you have enough inteligence to discuss topics like science, history, geography and current news? ( Yes I can name pretty much any countries flag when shown it)

Do you like to watch some sport including extreme sports like skateboarding? ( Yes I like Football / Soccer , Skateboarding, Skiing, Snowboarding, Wrestling, Golf etc)

Are you a typicaly a shallow person? No I judge people on the internal qualities not how they look. However if you happen to be cute then that is a bonus)

Do you watch trashy reality TV? Only to laugh at how dumb the people in are and how mass people seem to love it)

Are you a Game Of Thrones, Westworld, Futurama or Stranger Things fan? (Yes some of my fave shows along with lots of nature documentries too)

Would you be brave enough to try things you may have not done or been uncomfortable with in the bedroom?
( Yes because I have not done much innthe bedroom with a partner)

Do you like to bitch about others?
(No because I get along with
my friends)

Do you like to dress up for evenings out or are you more casual? (Yes I do and love seeing women do the same but jeans and a tshirt is ok for casual meets)

Do you feel comfortable in a nightclub and being surround by drunk people. ( My idea of hell, prefer a pub)

Do you easily forgive a person? (Depends what they have done but yes)

Are you prudish in any way? (No love sexual freedom)

Would you be the first to initiate a kiss?
( No too shy)

Is this possible?

I've asked my self being bisexual many times as well. I feel I've been too controlled, gaslighted and humiliated by women, either bullying as a kid, rejection and friendzone (I'm not forcing them to be my girlfriend but I hate being guilt tripped for me not wanting to be their friend after such a wasted effort). I suspect the abusive figure of my mother is behind this as well. All to the point I can't see women in a positive light when it's about personal relationships. I can be polite, work in a professional environment, but I'll definitely feel uncomfortable anytime things turn personal.

I'm a person who values trust, love and communication over sex. I don't feel comfortable kissing or having sex, indeed. I don't feel entitled to anything, I don't want to control nor be controlled. I've found that for my whole life, the closest degrees of this kind of trust I've ever experienced have been with men, indeed. Forced to call it friendship or not. It's not ideal easy to get the right emotional distance, to reach consensus on what we want, but I've come to feel it's way more feasible for what the people I've known are in my country.

Some people would rather suggest me to approach it via therapy, but I've been there, didn't work.

Disclaimer: I'm not idealizing it. When I think of myself as gay, I don't see myself eventually finding a man I'd love and be loved. It might not even happen, but at least I don't feel that intrinsic aversion I have to women, but hope and predisposition.