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Quiet & mysterious or outgoing & loud?

I'm a sophomore at a private girls school, and may I just say that high school is an absolute pain the the vagina. I've found that I'm much more mature than the average fifteen year old, and instead of wasting precious time liking pictures of Starbucks frapuccinos on facebook, I like to spend time learning weird things and eating and sleeping and reading. I like to live. Not through social media, through MYSELF.

And I simply can't be myself when it comes to high school hierarchy. Everyone seems to be the same. Everyone is concerned with popularity. Everyone basically discusses boys and sex and how hard the biology homework was. Friendship isn't deep in high school, or at least at mine. I mean, no one I've met at school is actually mean. But most high school girls are extremely judge mental, and they don't seem to accept you for who you are. I'm usually loud and outgoing and funny. But at school I become quiet and awkward. And when I open my mouth for five seconds because I feel like I connect with the topic of conversation, everyone goes "wow you talk a lot". I don't understand it. It bothers me so much.

I just don't like high school. I find that I interact much better, socially, with people I meet outside of school first, for god knows what reason.

I am considered by many as a tomboy, perhaps because I just don't like girly things...
I think like a guy, I love video games, I cannot stand makeup. I cut my hair short recently and I prefer wearing boy clothes. I would rather die than wear a dress or skirt and I can barely even wear short shorts. If anything I just wear jeans or basketball shorts.
But I'm kinda on the weird side. Most of the time I can be really quiet and introverted but sometimes I can be pretty loud and dare I say annoying. I don't talk too much, but once you get me going I'll blabber on and on.
I'm really nervous about what other people think of me. At my school most of the girls thought I was weird and I didn't know a single boy who didn't either ignore me or straight out mock and make fun of me.
I've noticed that everyone treats all the other girls like angels. All the guys always flirt with my friends but totally ignore me. This doesn't really bother me because I personally don't want to be in any sort of a relationship any time soon, but I just want to know what people really think of me.
It's fine if you say so anonymously, but I want you to be hard on me; totally honest. I don't ever plan on changing myself, but I guess I just wanna know.
Thanks.