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There is one ex I had from 3 years ago who I broke up respectfully as I possibly could. That didn’t stop her from going ballistic and completely psycho. She looked to me as a savior and I just didn’t want that. She threatened to kill herself after the split and it got so bad her family called the cops.

But I was so lonely and frustrated at the time they I pushed myself into the relationship just to feel “ normal” (almost all my friends are married, have kids or at least serious with someone).

Not to say I didn’t like her, I did. But there are were things I noticed about her early that were huge warning signs but I was sick of being running single weird guy joke among friends and family. I jumped into the relationship out of practicality.

THAT I regret. I’ve had past women do much worse to me than that. Still though it’s actually better to be lonely than to be with someone who drives you nuts. However I regret getting her hopes up.

In the first 4 years of my life, I was a happy kid. My parents always paid attention to me and we would spend almost all our time together. I never felt lonely despite being an only child.

My sister was born on the day before Christmas Eve 2005. Due to this, we didn't get to celebrate Christmas that year. I remember that I got lots of Christmas presents in 2004. But what about 2005? Well, I got nothing.

Ever since my sister was born, I've never really had my parents' attention. I honestly felt like an outcast in my family because my parents barely acknowledged my existence.

One time when I was 8, I asked my mother to play Monopoly with me. We started playing but my sister comes into my room a few minutes later and asks our mom to play dolls with her. Mom told me that we'll finish that round later and went to my sister's room to play dolls with her.

Second was when I was 11 and playing Super Smash Bros with my mom. My sister also wanted to play. She wasn't really good at the game, but that wasn't the biggest issue. The problem was she would start crying every time she lost so we had to let her win every time. Playing with her wasn't fun at all so I didn't want to play with her. But our mother wanted to so I was alone again.

I've hardly ever got any alone time with my mom because my sister would always come in. If I ever got to spend time with my mom, it was after my sister went to bed. At that point, I'd be too tired to do anything.

Every time it was my sister's birthday, our parents would give her $400. But I was lucky if I even got $100 for my birthday. When it was Christmas, she would always get more presents and I really think it's unfair.

My sister is the reason I was neglected. Ever since she was born, my life has been nothing but misery. Despite that, my sister is actually really nice to me and will often want to spend time with me (like watching a movie or playing video games together), but I still feel like she ruined my childhood.

Am I a bad person?