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So my marriage is shit, my wife is verbally abusive and I've finally had enough. I'm crazy about this girl at work and I finally got the guys to say something to her. I knew I had slim to zero chances, but she is seriously my dream girl and really needed to try. I opened up and told her everything, all the things I love about her (voice, hair...) and how beautiful she is and how she makes me feel so amazing just by being nice. The only thing is, she doesn't have feelings for me, only as a coworker she said. All this was said over text too. We had a lunch break at the same time so I asked if she wanted to hang out and talk, but she said she had midterms work to do and asked me what i wanted to talk about. I didn't want to text it but was worried I'd never get another chance and probably ended up oversharing. Now I don't know what to do next. I'm worried I shared too much and creeped her out. Or maybe it's the age difference or maybe its she just doesn't find me attractive, I don't know. She's barely acknowledged me the last two days at work. I'm trying to just back off, I don't want to make things any worse or seem even more like a creeper than I might already. But I'm just not ready to throw in the towel yet. I still can't stop thinking about her. She is seriously my dream girl. I've never been so sure of something, I've never felt this way, not even with my wife, who I'm more convinced then ever I married for comfort and because I was scared rather than love. So I guess what I'm wondering is what other girls would think in a situation like this? Would you want space? Or would you want to be wooed? Like I'm ready to go to her house and blast Peter Gabriel from my boombox to show her how much she means to me but I don't want to scare her or make her more uncomfortable or like she's wrong for not liking me. Any advice or thoughts would be greatly appreciated!

Summery:
My coworker who has feelings for me randomly gave me $100 last week for “wasting my time.” I’ve tried to give it back a couple times and she insists I take it. I feel bad taking it but arguing back and forth about it is getting tiring

Details:
My coworker has had a crush on me for a while and she gave me the silent treatment for months after I told her that I didn’t feel the same way. I told her respectfully but she’s constantly posting about being suicidal and I’m apparently one of the reasons why. (And I hate to say it, but a lot of the suicidal stuff she’s posts seems to be for attention. I think its pretty obvious)

She says she’s never been in a relationship before and really wanted to be with me, and doesn’t think she will find anyone like me.

Last week, she called me and told me she left an envelope on my back door. It was $100 and a card that said “Sorry for wasting your time” and she says that she owes me for the time I’ve spent with her. I tried to insist that she’s giving it to me for no reason but she won’t listen.

tonight I invited her over because she wanted to talk about how she’s feeling. She just went into more detail about her feelings for me and how she’s upset that I’m in a relationship now. I tried to just tell her respectfully that I’m sorry I don’t feel the same way but she will find a guy soon.

Which just led to her going off on me about how she thinks I don’t like her because of her weight and her ranting about being worthless, and implying she wanted to kill her self. After she left, she STILL left the $100 and insists that I keep it... but I feel like I would be a horrible person for taking it.

(I realize $100 isn’t THAT much in the end. But it’s just the fact she’s giving it to me for no reason and how I’m the reason she’s so hurt. She even gifted me a $60 hoodie which I accepted and I still feel bad for even taking that)

this whole situation is honestly fucking exhausting to me