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This guy I had had a crush on since middle school finally asked me out freshman year of high school. We flirted all the time but it took him so long because he was in a relationship until 8th grade but he still flirted and wanted to be around me all the time. When we finally got together I would feel butterflies all the time. He would call me all the time but I never answered because I was too nervous but in person I could talk forever. Unfortunately I found out that he was taking to other girls so I broke it off but he still tried to call and get me to talk to him but I ignored because I was sad. But that was freshman year, I am recently graduated and over the years he always stared at me from across rooms and I felt he loved me too but he eventually he got back with the girl he was with in middle school. And I was hurt until he came into my job that his friend worked with me. And he was visiting his friend when the friend came back he asked me if u still liked the boy at the time his girlfriend worked with me so I said no in fear of being set up. But he kept asking and he said I can tell you something good he f I said yes but I was scared. Now I have a new job that I work with him and he is always staring at me and trying to start a conversation with me. I do want him but at the same time I’m tired of wanting the same old thing. I want to try something new but it just feels like I’m destined to be with him. But I don’t want to be that other woman I want to be the only one. We have graduated and now our schools are right across the street from each other. However I am still wanting to see more people before I settle I don’t know why or if I should let go help!!

Growing up I had to learn not to care about how I looked. I was picked on from elementary through high school. Even if I wanted to dress nice, I'd get picked on for it. So, i wore jeans that didn't fit and sweaters or hoodies all the time. Eventually as emo became a thing, i went that route. Then as a young adult my confidence came from being a flirt. I'd go out dancing and flirt with guys who wanted to take me home. I never did because I was so insecure inside, but the invitation always gave me a boost. It was later in my twenties that I finally healed and matured from all of that insecurity. I'm not 100% over it all the time, but I'd say 90% of the time I'm secure in who I am and my personality that my body doesn't need to be given attention for my confidence.

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