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It's a long story. I've been cheating on my boyfriend with his best friend. (His best friend always has a girlfriend) for the last 3 months. I never slept with him but we did stuff together. Now he's just called things off etc, and I seriously can't stop crying. I feel so angry and upset yet this guy meant nothing to me. I wasn't crushing on him, I felt no feeling for him. So why am I getting so upset over this?

I was with my boyfriend for about 7 months and we were really close friends before we began dsting. This is basically my first love. So i dont really know how to handle it. He wasn't mature enough for a relationship i felt like i forced him but he said he wanted it. He was constantly with this other girl, holding her hand. It started arguments. We fought a lot becausehe would talk to her and i didn't trust them together. She had a name out for herself. I delt with cutting issues. I was putting a lot on myself. Trying to care for him and help him with school, at the same time i was hurting because i knew something was going on. One day he told me he had went to her house...
It tore me up. People kept telling me "you really gonna stress over this highschool shit " i was caught in my emotions. We eventuallt broke up. He said he didn't want a relationship. I started seeing them on instagram and snapchat together. She sleeps over his house. The more it killed me inside. I tried to commit suicide, stupid idea. I wasn't just struggling with him i was struggling with school, family, myself. I lost myself. My parents were really upset. Suprisingly so was he. I knew he still cared about me, his feelings werent there but mine were. We began to be friends but it was rocky because we would hear rumors which started arguments. Which led him to say he didn't want anything to do with me. I had a panic attack because iwasnt ready to. loose someone. so close to me, he actually understood me. The next day i got into an argument with him and the girl he cheated on me with, it escalated and i hit him.. i felt terrible. I let my emotions controlme i shouldn't havedone it. I started getting threats from his friends. I've been reslly depressed since. I tried to talk to him but he never replies. I miss him. And i feel alone. Seeing him with other girls makes me wanna throw up. He doesn't even look at me. I hate what he did to me but i hate that im not with himm

I do everything I can for my boyfriend. I help him with anything and everything. I call him/text him everyday to check on him, I always make time for him, I please him sexually, etc. I've even cut off male friends, deleted my social media accounts, and I do not talk to other guys other than at work or at school. He's also done those things for me too. He went to jail over getting in a fight and I was the first person there for him and I helped him fight it. I love him very deeply and I can honestly say, I'd do anything for him. I'm very loyal. I don't cheat, I don't lie to him, etc. A lot of guys try to get with me and I constantly turn them down. Even the really attractive ones. There has even been friends of his that tried to get with me and I've told him about it asap. I'm not super clingy, I give him space whenever he wants it. I just feel like he takes me for granted sometimes and I don't like it. It makes me feel unappreciated and like I'm doing something wrong. Guys/girls, do you think I'm a good girlfriend?