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My best friend pat.
When his girlfriend and him were together we didn't do nothing together and we talk from time to time.. but nothing more then that. Plus I had a boyfriend at the time

But in oct his girlfriend didn't want to work out the relationship. . and that same day I wanted to work it out with my boyfriend but he ended it that day.

That same day me and pat both admitted our feelings for each other
Etc
Well he told his cousin that he will give us a chance but he needs to get away from the city we r living in rn. Because all they do is gossip and shit like that


Well.. then.. the day after I spent the night. Literally. He and his ex were back together.. and he fucking snap at me saying like how he and his girl were together etc. I'm just like ok whatever
And he said in a message he didn't even like me. And he wants to be with her and her only.

But it was like a wk after they got back together. He started to talk to me again etc

pat. literally just confused the shit out of me.

He and his cousin were talking about how the relationship should be like trust honesty communication. . no jealousy etc and he was eyeing at me the whole time.

And then he touched my arm not once not twice but three times

And then he touched my finger not once but twice

And then I touched his finger by a mistake. ..


And he opened the door for me not twice but 3 times.


And now he told his so called girlfriend he loved her.. but they hardly talk on the phone they text more.. then talk and then he says he is married to her. And wants to have kids with her.. I mean hell she not even there to even help him him out nor there for his baptism.

But a few years ago she was there for his mom funeral and they went to school together. And her mom is pressuring him to get back together ( and now they r back together.. ) but fuck his FB and her fb says they are single.


What was his actions telling me? .
My best friend thinks pat likes me.

But what do u think?

I've been dating my boyfriend for nearly 2 years and his family like me. However, I don't like my past and have been trying to bury it. I'm afraid the news might get to him one day. Him and his family consider me a sweet, humble person.

Here is the deal:
I've changed but that's not who I was in the past. During my HS years and early 20's (I'm now 27), I've broken a couple hearts, joined gossiping, was hanging with the wrong crowd, stolen things and money from others, pretending to befriend socially awkward people (then ditched them... yes I used them), was a mistress once and tricked a married man (I didn't care for him either) into leaving his wife for me, etc.
I didn't mean to withhold this but I just wanted to start all over and get a chance in life. If I reveal all that, who is going to take me serious and want a family with me? I hate my past, regret my past actions and just want to be known for the present.

Does someone's past matters in a relationship?

Long ago when we were younger, my boyfriend once admitted he wanted to get me pregnant. He changed his mind when I said ''If you ever get me pregnant, I'm going to abort it, I never want kids ever''. On another day, I told him that I can trip on purpose and pretend it was a miscarriage. I was then 19/20.

Then from 2015-2019, I was suffering from low blood counts. If I had given birth by then, it would cause a massive internal bleeding and possible death.

We got back together years later in 2016. We've been in a long distance relationship since and I've remained childless at the age of 33. I had dreams that I would never have a child. If there is anyone I would've wanted if I had the power is switch back time and bear him a child, erase those horrible words. We would've been happily married and our would've been 13 years old by now. I can't and I feel this is my karma now. Is it?