Search Results: forgiving an ex

As teens we'd both been through rough stuff & by no means were up to dating. I was looking for a Mr (or Ms) RightNow as was he, I didn't care we were bff's.
For 7 years we've been friends, quietly close. We would talk all night, text constantly & all day, argue like lovers. I had no idea that it even seemed like a relationship - in my head we were friends because I felt as though if he was a man he would have sought me out more diligently.
He & I dated others, talked more than with anyone else but we sort of hid the others existence, something I realize seemed more like an affair than anything-perhaps emotional I suppose.
He would offer to get me clothes, get my hair done, buy me movie tickets - all things I vehemently rejected because I am all about covering myself w/friends. He even bitched at me for rejecting a game Monday!
Later as adults he said that I should have come on to him & demanded him, I realized that being more experienced I could have but I have a firm belief men should be the initiators.
Both dated others srsly, I thought moved on & kept contact after he moved - he even said..."You are the closest thing to a true significant other I've ever had."
Whoa right?
He told me all the things he wants me to piece together, something I loathe that he openly said he thinks I should just figure out due to his puzzling insecure b. s.
Ex: He told me how he was going to see a therapist to learn to understand himself better (I had suggested such for years), also his wage-very impressive, his insurance, all things I had always mentioned I NEED in a hubby (I know he told me these things to subtly say IM MARRIAGE MATERIAL).
I've been blind but he's been so mean sometimes, friends forgive so easily though.
He's moving back, calling more, texting more, says he wants to take me away etc. Everything I refused to accept but I still talk to him.
Friendship means everything.
We've also talked about breeding... I don't know what to think, or how he truly feels.