Search Results: im dating two guys

sometimes im a bit unsure if im single by choice or not so i guess i need a second opinion.

So from the age 18 to 20 i "dated" this stoner dude (i had REALLY low selfeestem and he was the first guy that activly showed interest in me, i didn't even find him attractive) for 2 months before he dump me.. I have been on 3 dates as i can remeber with guys that actually asked me out.. i think honestly its more, but i can't remeber right now.. I was "seeing" a guy for three months (we talked daily online, met three times total, kissed once). The last dating i did was 2 weeks a go when i went on two dates with a guy, for some reason i didn't find him as attractive as i did on the first date and we haven't talked since i said no to kissing him (i kissed him on the first date).

i think i have been "rejected" once were it really bothered me, i dont think i have been seriously rejected.. maybe guys were uninterssted and i catch on it when i was trying to flirt, but i dont think i guy has said "i dont want to date you" kinda thing. I dont go out much, but when i did i met guys, but they only wanted one thing...

I have guys showing interest, but necessarly guys i found attractive.. i have been on several dating apps.. it landend me one date.. i want to date, but it seems very hard... am i single my choice or not by choice? i can't decide

well I was dating this guy (stupid football player) and behind closed doors he told me that I was his girlfriend he told me I was different from any girl he had ever met, but when we were in school and people asked him if he knew me or we were dating she would tell them that he didn't know me he would say" I don't know that girl" if I will complete strangers he false claim me when I found out I immediately broke it off with him. He almost broke me. He ALMOST ruined me. This summer I've been plotting my revenge against him which is to better myself. I have used a daily moisturizing for my face and body everyday so they both look flawless nd glow, I've been drinking excessive amounts of water I've been doing 30 minutes of cardio every single day I've been eating up and down (diet isn't stable) and im getting a lot of cute ear piercings (industrial, tragus rook and foward helix) everything is good because when I go back to school im going to be a whole new me. Im gonna be hottter. I'm going to walk right past him. No eye I contact or anything and make him regret what he had done to me and make his friends tell him that he was stupid for ever letting me go. And humiliating me. Because even though i look great. I dont feel great. I m still hurt its been two months now school is starting back in 2 weeks so that means I'm going to have to see him every day I want him to her like I did I want him to feel more than that this is what I want but I know why shouldn't if that makes any sense. Is this really the best revenge or should I do more to him. because I am usually a firm believer of: You burn me. I burn you.