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I was on and off and never official with this guy for a long time who really cared about me, but had been in the same relationship for almost a decade, his only one ever, and I knew he wasn't over it. after I moved away for a while and came back we started seeing eachother again but he thought I was pushing him too hard. it was like he couldn't communicate to me what he wanted. he is a good person, I know he wasn't out to just use me. at least I hope not, I like to think I know him better than that. but it's like he thinks relationships hold him back from life in general, at least it appears that's how his last one made him feel. but I need a relationship to make me feel secure. so, that's where the problems ensue. I have never felt more in love or attracted to anyone else in my life. we did have sex, but he didn't stress it. I am seeing some one right now, it's been months since I have talked to the guy I am referring to as I told him it wasn't going to work, and blocked him on my phone (he has been known to drunk dial me). anyway, the other night in a moment of weakness, as I have been through some rough situations lately, I called him. I hung up almost right away but he called back a bunch of times, left a voicemail, left a text. I was suprised that he was so... excited to hear from me after how harshly things ended. and the sad thing is, this isn't the first time things have ended badly for us, it's happened a few times but we always seem to find our way back to eachother. I blocked him again and told him I missed him but just couldn't talk right now and hoped he was well. is it possible he could be ready to give me what I need? or at least meet me half way? he thought I was too codependent, and I don't know how to show him that I'm not but his hesitation around relationships makes me uneasy. why would a guy be so excited to go back to something that caused so much drama? why would he act so eager like that?

Now this question is mainly directed towards the girls with boyfriends but if you can relate then that's fine too. Now when I mean by fun I mean the ending result is pleasant but rough sex. I will admit...... I do it sometimes just to get that thrill of being mad and having it rough. I know I could simply ask for it like a normal person but HEY!? Where's the fun in that!? It just wouldn't be the same for me.