Search Results: ruining a chance

Second date with this girl. Things were going great. We were hugging, nice view, good weather. She's a beautiful girl i've been talking for a few months (distance didn't let us go on dates earlier). The perfect timing for a kiss. That's when i start feeling really sick of my stomach, probably due to the anxiety of thinking i'm about to kiss the girl of my dreams. I got so sick that i just couldn't even talk to her properly anymore and made up an excuse to go somewhere else, in hopes i would get better. It was such an unexpected moment that i didn't know if i should tell her i was suddently sick or just pretend everything was good. My retarded and socially awkward brain made the decision that i should pretend i was alright, probably to avoid the embarassement of telling her i wanted to throw up. I was so sick i couldn't even speak more than three words at a time so i think she just thought i was ignoring her and she decided to go home earlier. We have talked after that and i explained the situation to her but i can tell she's cold now. Obviously i'm depressed as hell because once again my anxiety and awkwardness ruined a chance with a great girl. Is it even worth it to keep trying with this girl?

If the girl (from elsewhere) grew up here most of her life, is there a chance she won't hold her culture nor tradition?

I don't know if it's just me or pure bad luck. I've dated both a Japanese and Mexican girl. Both had the same story of being raised here since learning how to walk (hence their perfect American accent) and most of their friends were whites.

I though there would be some difference but was super disappointed. There was no difference. Both of them sounded worthy of qualifying as girlfriend material, much less marriage. They were the same as some of the white girls here I don't like.