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I dont worry about it as much as i fantasize of being married to my future wife, i fantasize about it a lot because im a virgin waiting till marriage, never kissed any woman before, never did anything physical with any woman, But deep down i know i won't find anyone ever, because im too much of a complicated person and also im a schizophrenic, and im not into hook ups or causal sex, but still i fantasize about it, because hope is a beautiful thing, it keeps you strong through your difficult times, even if its a false hope

Should I block my Badoo match on Badoo and Instagram?
here's why>>
> first I swiped right on her and dm'd her on instagram saying "Hey emily" at 3am on Sunday
> then we matched on badoo (surprise!)
> then she said "Hey joshua" at 9:45pm on Monday
(that means she took 42 hrs and 45 mins to respond)
> I waited till Tuesday night, at around 10-11pm, to dm her "What's the best thing that's happened to you today?" (I didn't think she even saw the message btw)
> so I unsent the message at around 2am and sent her a gif of a dog yawning (see below)
> she still didn't open the message
> she did "like" me and match me on badoo, but didn't even request to follow my instagram. we both had our insta names on our badoo bios (she removed her insta from her badoo bio)

What should I do? block her? dig for younger girls (i promise NOT TOO YOUNG, dont worry)

and please, do not tell me to tell her to meet me up somewhere. i do not have a job or a car to drive (i had one job, but not where i live right now). i am very broke, have a very low budget on my credit card and it's even part of my mom's bank so she knows immediately when i pay for stuff with my card. she had a specialist come in and say i that i can't work because i have mental health issues (autism, occasional outbursts, etc)

(btw, excuse my lowercase writing, I just made it easier to read)

I'm too broke to go out on a date

actually even if i didn't have a disability, she still wouldn't let me have a driver license because to her "it's too expensive" and working "creates stress." (well it's true, we are a broke family) she believes that where we live, "most" 18 year olds do not drive, and she suggests focusing on school is best.

also, my dad is the polar opposite, he is a capitalist who raised me to be an Alpha male. my mom, believe it or not, is a communist who raised me to be a beta male (and who believes girls should chase me first)