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I texted him because it was bothering me that he wanted to hide that we were dating i felt bad like he was ashamed and he could have been hiding something so i texted him this "I sent him this message is it okay? "So I noticed how the day after we ran into your friend you told me to walk the other way and i know you have told me that this is weird to you people finding out. But to be honest this makes me feel hurt it makes me feel like you are ashamed of me and it makes me have a harder time trusting you. I just felt like i should let this out " and he reacted like really shocked he said like wtf you assumed things and stuff like that. i hope i didn't mess up things he is my first boyfriend ever and i just felt worried with what people were telling me on here that he was cheating on me and ashamed of me so yeah that's why i texted him

So, I have the higher labido and want to have sex with him ALL the time, but he almost never initiates, and I often feel like I'm not being sexually satisfied.

In the beginning of the relationship (almost a year ago), he told me he regularly masturbated to naked anime drawings/3d models and stuff, and I asked him to stop (which he did)

But I found out he still does look at and save those images (just on a different platform) and I feel hurt bc this was really recent that he liked those things, and his excuse was "well, now you know I have a working dick, what's the problem?"

If he wants to continue looking at those things he can just say so, and I would go on to someone who doesn't, but he hid it behind my back (after pretending he stopped) and is now smug about it?

I don't care if some guys think I'm irrational, I don't care that he looks at it, I really don't. I just don't want him lying, hiding things, and being rude. I've dated guys in the past who focused their sexual energy on me, and it worked out great in bed.

I'm hurt more than anything about he smug he was about it, even though he knew it bothered me.

And the picture above is of a printed model he liked, and it's based off a real woman. You can google whatever it to see the entire body.