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Considering most women are approached by their SO. If a woman is never approached or only approached by guys she’s not interested in, how come a good guy hasn’t come along? She takes care of her appearance etc... could she just not be attractive? Honestly a woman should not go
above and beyond to find a man, the man is wired to pursue. Why is she single? It’s not her fault, especially if she has tried.

-I just started university but can't handle engineering while everyone my age is finished
-i can't get out of bed and get work done
-i look fat
-i have acne
-i don't know what career to pursue
-i want to die
-i feel constantly like a failure
-i can't live my truth, my parents are religious nuts and im an atheist
-im pretty but I feel like its waisted on me
-my hair is not growing how I want it. I look crazy
-i keep comparing myself to people I knew in high school... facebook
-i have no friends, at university or before... I've cut them off of ignore them
-i want a significant other but I dont deserve that

Im a mess, depressed just turned 23 maybe i should die

I've been talking to this shy-overthinking guy for a few months. It's pretty clear we liked each other. Due to some differences and his doubts about me, I initiated to stop pursuing to be together. But he said he would always be there if I needed him until one of us finds a partner. After that, our interaction remained the same, as if nothing happened. That lasted for 2 weeks. We even planned for a staycation a month or 2 from now.

Then, his responses started getting bland and he ignored me being affectionate and just responded my text but rarely asked questions. That lasted for a few days, then he seemed to be interested again though he still didn't ask as many questions as he used to. But because he is so confusing, I decided to give him bland responses as well, but still joke around sometimes, but no rimantic emotions involved. Though I am actually still interested in him but my pride is keeping me from making more efforts because I feel doubted and rejected. What is wrong with him? Is he still interested? Or just doesn't wanna lose my attention? Did he change his mind and wants to be pure friend? What should I do?