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I have been with my fiancé for four years. We live together and have a child together. I plan on spending my life with him but I know I'll never be truly as happy as I could be. Here's why. In the four years of being with him he has never once given me a complement. At least nothing more than a "I like that shirt".
It bothers me! A lot! I feel so ugly! The thing is I'm a hairstylist and with my profession I talk to a lot of men. Many of which have straight up told me a beautiful. So why can't the man I'm spending my life with tell me that?
I tried the whole hint at it thing... Nothing. So then I grew a pair and straight up told him what was bothering me. (This was about a year into the relationship) he said he just wasn't the type of guy who said things like that. It embarrassed him or something. I believed him for a while until one day I saw a few Facebook messages he had written to random women friends of his, telling them how attractive they were. Using words like you are so gorgeous and looking good. I didn't confront him right away because I'm just not that type of girl. Instead I let it fester. Wrong choice. Several weeks later I finally told him I saw those messages. He was more angry at me for snooping than anything. He did apologize though and swore it wouldn't happen again. And for some reason I accepted his apology.
I didn't bring up that situation again until a year later when we got in a relatively big fight. During the corse of the fight I told him that it still bothers me that he has never given me a complement. He said it bothered him that I "constantly" complain about that. Constantly? Constantly? Really I'd rarely said anything compared to how it felt inside. Well the fight blew over and I haven't said anything since. But I do still think of it. And now that I am a stay at home mom / daycare provider I'm not seeing my male hair clients anymore. Therefore I'm not getting any kind of complements and my self esteem is dwindling. Help!