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Okay so I work with this dude, and he's pretty cute. But he never talked to anyone, so I started talking to him, just to be friendly, I try to at least learn everyone's names. But then he started wanting to hang out. SO today he texted me and asked if I was busy and if I wanted to chill. I said sure, by now I've developed a little crush on him. And I still really think he likes me too. Like he wears headphones while he's working, when I go to talk to him he takes out both his ear buds. He ACTIVELY tries to hang out with me. Today we sat in a gas station and passed back and forth a joint, also I ran errands with him. He even paid for us to get some take out, and then he drove us to on top of a car garage so we could look out at the lights of the city, and there were pink car lights at our feet, it just seemed so romantic, and we had like a deep convo.

Then he began taking me home. Almost right before we pulled up at my house he dropped the bomb that he has a girlfriend. but basically said the only reason he was still with her was because without her he'd be homeless. He's 18 working a retail job. So I get it. But at the same time it's still his girlfriend, and he still wants to hang out with me. I'm just like really confused. I've never even dated a guy before.

Yesterday after gym class I walked through the hallway and stood by myself then my crush came out, he saw me and motioned for me to go over with him. We stood in this corner and talked, he described how I did when we played soccer together then when he saw a group of guys he asked about my crush for the fourth time and tried figuring out who it was (If only he knew it was him). Then out of nowhere he mentioned that he had a girlfriend and then in between our conversation I became quiet and uncapable of speaking

Me:"Why are you asking me who I like if you have a girlfriend?"
Him:"I ask everyone that"
I left him and told my friends about what I had found out then one of them asked him who she was then I said

Me:"Good for you"

When our corner got crowded and filled with people I ran away from there and through the halls for my next class.

I feel so embarrassed and ashamed how I didn't know that, since I do I'm going to hide my feelings and keep them to myself because I'd only be in his way. From here and on I'll just continue being his friend, I've come to realize that's all I'll ever be but I'm okay with it. This whole time I thought he liked me but I guess I was wrong and confused fantasy with reality again but now I know.

He
•Wears Cologne
•Fixes Hair
•Stares Constantly
•Glances When I'm Not Looking
•Always Smiles
•Leans In When Standing And Sitting Besides Me
•Walks Slow With Me
•Asked Who I Liked Already Four Times
•Teases Me
•Encourages Me
•Helps Me With Anything If I Ever Need It
•Gives Me A Look When I Talk To Other Guys

Yesterday after gym class I walked through the hallway and stood by myself then my crush came out, he saw me and motioned for me to go over with him. We stood in this corner and talked, he described how I did when we played soccer together then when he saw the group of guys he asked about my crush for the fourth time and tried figuring out who it was (If only he knew it was him). Then out of nowhere he mentioned that he had a girlfriend and then in between our conversation I became quiet uncapable of speaking,

Me:"Why are you asking me who I like if you have a girlfriend?"
Him:"I ask everyone that"
I left him and told my friends about what I had found put then one of them asked who she was then I said

Me:"Good for you"

When our corner got crowded and filled with people I ran away from there and through the halls for my next class.

I feel so embarrassed and ashamed how I didn't know that, now that I do I'm going to hide my feelings and keep them to myself because I'd only be in his way. From here and on I'll just continue being his friend, I've come to realize that's all I'll ever be but I'm okay with it. This whole time I thought he liked but I guess I was wrong and confused fantasy with reality again but now I know.

He
•Wears Cologne
•Fixes Hair
•Stares Constantly
•Glances When I'm Not Looking
•Always Smiles
•Leans In When Standing And Sitting Besides Me
•Walks Slow With Me
•Asked Who I Liked Already Three Times
•Teases Me
•Encourages Me
•Helps Me With Anything If I Ever Need It
•Gives Me A Look When I Talk To Other Guys