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I am 28 years now, was born in a lower middle class family in India but as far as I can remember I always dreamed about becoming "RICH" didn't realize that it’s not so easy to be one :( that too in my country. Now today I have worked 10 years (5 year in local businesses which companies don't accept as work experience) got a 5 year college degree, working a low paying job in a company now. Reasons I wanted to be rich were not I wanted a Ferrari or a beach house or never wanted to work but I just wanted a good life for myself/wife/kids. That's why I never dated any girl or have any friends who are girls. I lost my savings while trying to start businesses 2 times in my life just coz I wanted to become rich. Now I am back to where I started from, no money in my bank. Even if I save 20 years I don't think I will be able to buy her a flat. When I see my boss who is a high school pass, unmannerly man but still is the CEO just coz he inherited this all. He got a loving, caring wife. I feel bad and sad for myself. I am above average looking and nice guy but chose to remain single just coz I wanted to give everything to my wife but sadly I failed, now the problem is for past 1 year I feel lonely and sad coz I know I have to live alone forever coz I will never be able to give same life to my wife that rich people can give to their wives, I don't want my wife to suffer just coz I was not rich. I don't want those fights about money and inability to buy her an apartment/flat and car and jewellery. But even if she is happy doesn't mean she's really happy with me coz I know deep down I won't be happy as I won't be able to give her what she deserves/wants moreover I also won't be happy as I never wanted to live this kinda life. I don't think I will ever succeed and become “RICH”. So what should I do now? I have decided I will remain single forever and stop dreaming like an idiot now because I am at the crossroads I can't go with this uncertainty anymore. So what you guys say now?