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So, I'm a 14 yr old girl who was born and and lives in New Zealand. I'm a Christian, but not that crazy about it. I've recently realized I have depression, I think I know the cause for this and its because of bullying, pressure from family to succeed, family problems, and mainly love. Unrequited love. I realized I tend to like a lot of guys, and all of them hate me, I hate to admit this but, I think I'm boy crazy, My friend told me her parents don't want her to be my friend anymore, as I was boy crazy. I just want to talk to someone who will always be there for me.
Tbh, I mainly just want a text buddy, but it can be more if you want.
I have a crush, but he's leaving school in a few weeks, as he is graduating, And I really don't want him to leave, I can't just watch him leave and do nothing about it.
So this crush, I told him that I wanted to kill my self, he told the school guidance councilors. He said sorry, but he thought they would help me, as he went there as well when he was also 14. I really love him, and I can't get over the fact that he will leave forever. He doesn't know I like him, I want to tell him I do, 2 days before he leaves, I'm thinking of starting it by talking about unrequited love, then telling him that he is my unrequited love, then saying that when i noticed him, he looked like a really nice person who would help me, and i will then say how he's really talented, which is true, he is a musician, a singer, the leader of a band, actor, and that he was funny. I will tell him i was immediately drawn to him. I will tell him that i will miss him, and i will say good luck to his future. that is what i will tell him before he leaves.

Also I honestly dont know what is happening to me, as I feel like im doing it for attention, to get the boys, but again, i think its real, I dont know anymore. My parents dont know anything, as Asian parents dont believe in mental health and stuff. My friends think im mental and crazy. Im 85% positive I have depression.

Yes you read right this is about a girl and I'm a girl. First off, I've known Monique since we were 15 (we are both 23 now). I thought I was straight until I got close with her. Monique is a lesbian and a little tomboyish. We became close as friends in high school and I even started to like her! This made me question my sexuality big time. She rejected me because she saw me as a friend and I was 100% okay with that and quickly moved on!

Fast forward to now,
We are both 23. We recently got back in touch after all these years and we have caught up. :) it was nice to have my friend again! I've dated guys between then and now and have been attracted to guys. We are both single at this time. The more I've been talking with her... The more my crush for her is developing. I'm confused because 1.) Am I interested in girls too?
Also, she's been saying things that make me question if she feels the same. I'll give you some examples:
I was talking about how I wanted a back rub (in general)
Her response: You're about to catch these magic hands ☺ hahaha
And I said: Awwww I thought you were serious lol
And she said: Well I was but I didn't want to sound weird 🤦but you can catch the magic hands anytime.
Then later we planned to go to a concert and she promised me that it would be fun for me.
Then I was talking about how I have a tummy because I'm chubby. She said "No you don't. You're perfect!"
Then I was talking about cuddling weather and how I needed to cuddle with my someone and I wanted it to be her. I then immediately text back that I was sorry for sounding weird. She said "Well if I'm not a weirdo to you... Then you're not a weirdo to me. 😉 I'll be your cuddy buddy ☺ haha." I'm just confused because she could just be nice and she calls me 'girl' and I do that with my other female friends... Help me?