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Well it's like this I'm a recent college graduate, most of the friends I made were very similar to.me in the not dating or into romance category. We were all very.nerdy never talked about boys dating etc. I'm a very big tomboy so were the rest of.my gaggle of girls. None of us have ever dated yeah it's sad were all 23-25 years old haha. Recenlty one of my buddies that was quite frankly the least.mature.most naive of us (basically SpongeBob with breasts) started getting flirted with by some dude and now they are making out in public and shit and.its like.really hit a nerve. What ever this feeling is its negative and i dont like it and can't pin point it. We were closer friends cause she was the only one who lived near my home town that I could visit easily. Im worried I'll lose her as a friend because I've seen too many times girls ditch their friends for guys and vice versa then get hurt. But they've ditched their friends in the process of a booty call so I don't know. Am I jealous? I've got no idea I've never dated but I also just act to much like a guy for a guy to want unless he was gay and I seem to fair girls anyway. I need done he'll guys and gals it's too the point where if I get in Facebook I feel like throwing my phone or computer at the wall or saying fuck you to everyone. I was taking a break from it for a few months now but today there was a video of the friends u was talking about making it with her new boyfriend and all of our group have kinda lost it. I'm the only one feeling negatively about it however. Everyone else is like "oh its so cute" fuck cute gah

I'm going to go punch stuff... our play a game I feel like a damn little kid.

So, before you start judging me, I am no doubt one of the most loyal, faithful females on the face of this Earth. Contacting this guy doesn't mean I'm plotting to initiate an affair or meet up and have some steamy, hot sex. It simply means that I think on a larger scale and I humbly realize that not contacting him, while the opportunity still exists, may be something I regret for the rest of my life.

There's no doubt in my mind that my current boyfriend will not be the man I marry and settle down with. Ya know how people say "You just know when they're the one"...well, I just know that he's not. My intuition is loud and clear that this man is not my life partner and I'm okay with that. Nonetheless, right now at this phase of my womanhood, I'm enjoying this relationship. This relationship is helping the both of us grow and learn in ways that we can not achieve on our own as one. I appreciate him as a man; the content of his character, the things he has made an effort to work on in our relationship, and the way he makes me feel. However, I am undeniably aware that there is no extended longevity in this pairing. I still would never, EVER cheat *I don't have it in me* and when guys hit on me, I'll be come a b*tch if that's what needs to be done to defend my man's honor and get it through to them.

Anyhow, a few years ago, I stumbled on what may have been one of the greatest romances of my life. It was an instant, magnetic connection like no other in my history to date. There was an effortless chemistry that I still have not achieved in my current relationship. : / To sum it up: it was a very remarkable, momentary experience that didn't progress due to miscommunication and bad timing. For three years, I stubbornly reserved a place for him in my heart despite his absence. We lost touch and I hoped and wished that we would find our way back to each other. Then my brilliant friend told me to just pull the phone records lol

Should I give him a call?