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My dad, mom, cousin, and other people said that he played me (my emotions). He was my first boyfriend we would argue because I felt like he was cold and he would often tell me that I should leave. and he hurt me so much when he broke up with me and me knowing that I might not ever see him again because he’s leaving to college hurt me more. I have spent days and nights crying it has been nearly 2 months now. To be honest he did break up with me in a sweet manner through text saying that I was so beautiful and kind hearted and that he would still be here and that we could still be friends and he even posts pictures of the country he’s in because he knows that I liked seeing pictures he never texts me anymore though to see how I am or anything. I don’t know how to think or feel

Me and my boyfriend have been together for 1 and a half years now
But 1 month ago we broke up because he got fed up with my trust issues and accusing him of cheating/flirting with other women
he's never cheated on me but my ex boyfriend did so i still have trust issues
But 2 weeks later, he called me and wanted to get back together again and I apologized to him
So we got back together

Anyway so I know his passwords to everything
His phone, tablet, laptop, email, etc
I went on his phone messages last night (I know its bad but I wanted to know if he was seeing other girls during breakup)
I didn't find anything (as in he didn't add any girls or went to see another girl)
But I did find something
- he messaged his best friend and he sent a photo of this girl and he said to him "im talking to this hot chick, gonna be my new girlfriend, easy bro😂"

I got pissed
And confronted my boyfriend
And he said "yeah I went on dating app to get my mind off you, was talking to girls on it, added them on instagram. I talked to her but she got weird and started asking me dumb questions so I blocked her. You can check my instagram block list. I dont care. And plus I saw you on it too so I got more pissed and talked to more girls. But i didn't go see them"
And he showed me his block list and he did block that girl
And i said "if u want her or other girls, why come back to me?"
Then he replied "isnt it obvious? I still have feelings for you and I felt weird talking to those other girls anyway"

So I'm going on a side trip with my best friend and our stop is somewhere close to my where my ex boyfriend leaves who also happened to be a very close friend of my best friend. We are gonna met up with him while we are there. I had it in my mind that I was gonna sleep with him when we seen each other because to be honest I haven't had any in a while. Anyway I was just looking through my period app and it says I'm going to be ovulating then. Now I'm so against even seeing him because of cause I don't wanna get pregnant. But a part of me still wants to sleep with him but now all I can think about it getting pregnant. Do you guys think I'm just overreacting and just need to calm down? Or I'm just acting like somebody that doesn't wanna have a kid?