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Hey guys!

I am new to this forum.

Ill give you a bit of a background on me. I am in my early 20s and have been with my boyfriend for about two years. We have a fairly good relationship and spend a fair bit of time with each other. There are also a few bad things about our relationship. There are a couple of times in the past where he has not been supportive when I really needed it. I found out he cheated on me a few months ago... around June. I remember the actual night as I was meant to catch up with him to go shooting etc but ended up staying at home. I told him to have a good night. I found out a few weeks later that he had actually slept with another woman that night. They went shooting went to the pub and got drunk... she was there and him and his mate ended uo back at her house. I found the conversation between him and her on his computer through Facebook. It happened about 11 o clock at night and she was drunk and begging him to come over and you know what. He told her no he was tired. She kept asking if it was OK to call yet and if he had broken up with me yet. He also told her no one would no as no matter what he just always denys.

I couldn't believe it was so angry and hurt. I did reply to a few messages at first saying how angry I was... he still kept denying it... I wanted to see if he felt guilty. The only way he owned up was once I told him how id seen the conversation between him and her on Facebook. I then deleted him and blocked him from Facebook and stopped replying to his messages. I have never had so many missed calls and messages saying all sorts of things. How he had messed up and he loved me and regretted it so much. He sent me messages saying so many nice things. He also walked to my house in the cold and middle of the night.. it is a good 15 km from his house and couldn't drive as he'd been drinking. He also turned up at my house two days later with flowers and looking all clean and tidy. I know I must look silly but when in this situation and you still love them so much its hard to say no. We ended up talking about things... he kept apoligising and was being so sweet.

We are now back together and things are pretty good and back to the way things were before any of this ever happened. I have been snooping as my trust is just shot but he still gets angry at me if I do and keeps changing his passwords to everything and never leaves his phone unattended very often. Whenever I have snooped I Haven't really found anything bad. My trust is so shot though... he is away on a field trip for uni and all I can think of is if he might sleep with someone else... I feel although he was really sorry and did some nice things otherwise its like he's just gone back to before... he always sais he won't do it again... but words are just words right...

Sorry for the long rant. Was just hoping someone out there could give me a few thoughts on the situation. He says he w